I sit here and wonder, what am I doing here. What is my purpose now. Everything has changed so much. I feel as if I have been plucked out of the sky and dropped into humanity. How much of what happens here is our free choice. How much of it do we get to choose. How much of it is part of the plan and what we must work inside.
I was taught that there were those of us that had a book written to live out in this life, being given lessons over and over again until we learned them. Once we learned all the lessons, it was a blank book and we got to do what we wanted. I was told I got back to that blank book. Quite the feat.
Then I got baptized and forgiven of all my sins. Did I put myself into another book with another plan, only to start all over again. Now living Gods Plan. The Quoran says "it is written" all the time. How much of what I live now is written. Or was it allways that way and I was just under the illusion it was any different. I feel there are moments of our lives where we get to choose what happens to us on a larger scale. However, once the choice is made, we have to live with the consequences of that choice. Now I live as an Elder, Consecrating everything I have including my life to the Church of Jesus Christ and Latter Day Saints. I would have been more comfortable if it were to God. People in the Church think that to the Church means to God. I wonder if I have chosen what will happen to me in the after life. As I keep my covonants, God promises cirtain things to me. Mainly the only thing of those promises I care about is being a disciple of Christ. That is what I did all this for. It was just that so much more came with it.
To spread the word seems to be what everyone cares about. At least that is mostly what I hear about. Everyone talks about the "whole truth", although I don't see a whole lot of self groath and development being taught. There is a basic plan and understanding of the way things work and that gets repeated over and over again. I have come to learn that my evolutoin is threw prayer and being taught by the spirit rather than what I get from Church. What is interesting is that I can find an answer for just about any question in the Gospel. Just open it up, go to what ever paragraph my eye is drawn to and there it is. I have a hard time learning the text and memorizing it as my memory isn't the greatest, however, being in the moment with it, I am good at. I find to grow in the church is a personal journey. I have even been asked not to share my spiritual experiences. Mostly as they would not be understood I think. People of the church are put into a safe container. That container is maintained by turning a blind eye to evil. See no Evil, Hear no Evil. I have herd this before, "focus on what you want, not on what you don't want" Abraham Hicks. As I focus on God's plan of salvation that is what I am creating in my life and the lives of those that come into my circle of experience. That is the great work being done here. The essence of being a missionary. I have said here that we are here till everyone that is alive or has lived is given a chance to here about the Gospel and decide if they will take to the waters and fires of baptism. Given the choice of eternal life. Then I was told it may take beyond my life here on the Earth to get it done. What have I agreed to? It is the Work. No different I suppose than the Bodhisattva Vow of reincarnating till everything on the planet is enlightened.
So what does it mean to be a Disciple of Christ here at this time. For me now I think it is about learning what the rules are. That is in the Gospel. I say unto you, Do what is Right and Let the Consequences Follow :)
Shaun Gamache
I was taught that there were those of us that had a book written to live out in this life, being given lessons over and over again until we learned them. Once we learned all the lessons, it was a blank book and we got to do what we wanted. I was told I got back to that blank book. Quite the feat.
Then I got baptized and forgiven of all my sins. Did I put myself into another book with another plan, only to start all over again. Now living Gods Plan. The Quoran says "it is written" all the time. How much of what I live now is written. Or was it allways that way and I was just under the illusion it was any different. I feel there are moments of our lives where we get to choose what happens to us on a larger scale. However, once the choice is made, we have to live with the consequences of that choice. Now I live as an Elder, Consecrating everything I have including my life to the Church of Jesus Christ and Latter Day Saints. I would have been more comfortable if it were to God. People in the Church think that to the Church means to God. I wonder if I have chosen what will happen to me in the after life. As I keep my covonants, God promises cirtain things to me. Mainly the only thing of those promises I care about is being a disciple of Christ. That is what I did all this for. It was just that so much more came with it.
To spread the word seems to be what everyone cares about. At least that is mostly what I hear about. Everyone talks about the "whole truth", although I don't see a whole lot of self groath and development being taught. There is a basic plan and understanding of the way things work and that gets repeated over and over again. I have come to learn that my evolutoin is threw prayer and being taught by the spirit rather than what I get from Church. What is interesting is that I can find an answer for just about any question in the Gospel. Just open it up, go to what ever paragraph my eye is drawn to and there it is. I have a hard time learning the text and memorizing it as my memory isn't the greatest, however, being in the moment with it, I am good at. I find to grow in the church is a personal journey. I have even been asked not to share my spiritual experiences. Mostly as they would not be understood I think. People of the church are put into a safe container. That container is maintained by turning a blind eye to evil. See no Evil, Hear no Evil. I have herd this before, "focus on what you want, not on what you don't want" Abraham Hicks. As I focus on God's plan of salvation that is what I am creating in my life and the lives of those that come into my circle of experience. That is the great work being done here. The essence of being a missionary. I have said here that we are here till everyone that is alive or has lived is given a chance to here about the Gospel and decide if they will take to the waters and fires of baptism. Given the choice of eternal life. Then I was told it may take beyond my life here on the Earth to get it done. What have I agreed to? It is the Work. No different I suppose than the Bodhisattva Vow of reincarnating till everything on the planet is enlightened.
So what does it mean to be a Disciple of Christ here at this time. For me now I think it is about learning what the rules are. That is in the Gospel. I say unto you, Do what is Right and Let the Consequences Follow :)
Shaun Gamache
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