Collection of 32 paintings Self Portraits 1
A collection of 32 of my self portraits series on a black sheet background. 8 x 10 feet. They are acrylic on canvas. The images are made up of 16 x 20 inch canvases. I am God looking at himself looking at himself. see the artist statement on my page for a larger explanation.
I venture into the unknowns of the mind. I am looking for the parts of myself that I have not yet seen. So much of me is mimicked by what I have seen in this world. Simply repeating the patterns that I have seen since being born. Then there are the patterns that come form other life times that get played out here as being part of my character in this place. We are here after all to develop our characters. My art transcends time and space within a mental realm to manifest itself here in third dimensional form on a canvas, piece of paper, or what ever form can be shared in this third dimensional place.
I have traveled into sanity and insanity in this lifetime. I have been doing to work to become the master. Eventually I will transcend, when the time comes. In this life or another. My work shows me where I am. It is a mirror of my process both as myself and as others. It is like being in a dream and seeing someone else as you and being able to control what they do. To control the dream here is to be able to experience this world on all levels that exist here. From the Philadelphia Experiment where people de-manifested and then re-manifested into the metal of a ship, loosing their lives, to time travelers, to other dream worlds that exist on this planet that people can experience. All are in the realms of the mystic. “The mystic swims in same waters that the schizophrenic drowns.” Rosicrucian Manuscript.
I live my life as the mystic and my work explores this. From a primal place of where someone comes from when they are sick, to a man of power. And then back to a man of peace and love. My faces explore who I am on a daily basis. Some are of this world, others are not. Yet all of them come here through me to be expressed. I am the vessel. My hand moves in no mind. No thinking. Simply to be in a state of being. I explore the mind but I also explore the heart. I see my emotions in each face. I see the pain that plagues me as well as the bliss of the divine love of God. How much can we experience as a human being in this human condition.
I am here to observe and take nothing personally. Be non-attached to the human condition. This is part of my practice and my art. To be fully present here and in spirit. Where really is the here. That is subjective. To be here and now is what I draw. I paint often creating the title before I start so that the energetic of what I create can birth itself out of the void.
The why of why I am here is so that humanity can continue to exist on this planet. I have also come to know myself as an artist. I am an automatiste in that I do automatic drawings and paintings. I have done abstract and figurative works. Lately it has been a series of portraits, however they come from my subconscious. I am also working on portraits for others as part of my practice.
In my faces they are reflections of who I am in my masculine and feminine identities. If I can say, “I Am the Universe”, then everything in it has something to do with me. I am a creator or co-creator with everything else in it. There is also thee world, then there is my world. My world consists of everything I am aware of in my circle of influence. All other objective things can be part of thee world, but don’t have anything to do with me on a subjective level because I am not the one experiencing it. Therefore everything that happens to me is subjective as it comes through my filters and is interpreted by me. As everything I experience does this how could anything be anything other than subjective that I am experiencing.
My paintings come from other places yet are still channeled through me to become physical on a piece of paper or in a painting. I am bringing fifth dimension, the dream time, into third dimension, the artwork. This is the work of the automatist. To do without doing. To step into no mind. Simply be. This is why my faces become a reflection of myself as I am interpreting my dream on a piece of paper or canvas.
In my abstract work I see images in the work. It starts as an abstract expressionist piece, then as I view the painting, it becomes for me an objective image. Usually I can see multiple images in one canvas, even as I turn the paintings. Some only see color field, and that is fine. Once the piece has left me and is given to the public it is up to them to find their own subjective reality with my work.